I swear I have some of the most brilliant posts in my mind. Just this weekend, I had an idea for a very thought provoking piece dealing with…yup, I can’t remember it.
So at first, I thought to myself this would be a temporary thing…The infamous mommy brain. I recognized it when I was pregnant with my first child. I would be talking with a friend, and I would have to recall an event, something minimal that I of course knew how to describe eloquently, but alas, I would just end up saying, “Um, um, um…wait a minute, it’ll come back to me” and the thought would never come back to me. It was like it was stranded on a desert Island, waiting for me to come save it. It was there, I just had to find it.
My memory recall has gotten worse after my second child. I even took extra DHA (recommended by a friend) in order to save my brain cells. Sometimes when i’m at work and in social circles, I sound really smart and I think to myself, “There you are brain, we’re back in business!” Other times, I feel like a blubbering idiot. I try to laugh it off, because I know this is a part of life, but I have thought to myself, “Is this early onset dementia? Am I losing it?”
I hope i’m not alone on this, because It would totally suck if I was.
You know how you feel when the thought is right there, and you just need a little help recalling it so that the full thought comes out and you can display your genius like a proud peacock? Well I feel like that all the time.
Yesterday, I had a great topic idea for a new blog post and I tried to write it down but I was in a place where I couldn’t write it down anywhere. When I tried to recall the idea…yup, you guessed it, I couldn’t remember it for the life of me. If ever I felt a missed opportunity happening, that was it.
No mom wants to really admit that her brain loses cells each time she has a child. The repercussions in the work environment and at home would be too great. Imagine your boss blaming your work performance on your lost brain, or your partner always blaming your absent mindedness on your missing cells. But I really wish those conversations could happen because they are important. Imagine how your workflow would go if you were totally honest with your boss, your co-workers and your clients if they knew this information and didn’t use it against you. If society was more honest about motherhood and parenting in the 21st century, that means we could have an honest conversation about my missing brain.